Two of my favorite goals. Or so I thought. I mean after all my closet hobby for years has been reading the likes of Jack Canfield, Brian Tracy, David Allen, Stephen Covey et al. I love reading these books. I love trying to set goals and organize myself. I guess thats in part because I grew up in a house with a family that was decidedly dysfunctional and maybe organizing and planning are paths I have taken in the last 10 years or so to get a hold of that erratic chaos I feel.
However as I advance through school I am finding my planning and or organizing is not so set as I thought. I am terrible at story boarding and setting up a plan for websites. Its entirely possible that it is partly because I am new to this field or maybe my years of chaos are still effecting me or I am just impatient.
I know intellectually that planning things out in advance of say a webpage or an After Effects project is important. What happens though is that I dont do it. At least I havent yet. Though in my defense this is the first semester I have attempted either one and is it just OCTOBER. Ok so its the end of October, practically November.
My point is: while tending to beating myself up I have to remember I am new to this. But I also know that I am an impatient person and in my wanting to move forward and get something done I can easily look over the details of something and this worries me. I always feel like I am in a rush to finish, to move forward to learn more. Then I implode and have days like I did last tuesday where the PLAN was to go to school and rescue an AfterEffects project and what happened is that I stayed home and watched the entire first season of Grey’s Anatomy instead. I needed to give my brain a break.
Trying to organize the second half of my life sucessfully considering there is a lot of spillover from the first half is a challenge in and of itself which takes both planning, organizing, motivation, goals and considerable flexibility. Sometimes I just need to watch some mindless TV with snarky repartee and eye candy.